Relationship, Personal Problems

I am so sorry for me being a mess right Please help donate, help me get out of this predicament. I don t want you guys to see my other video look at Gray, or William, my boyfriend, like he s a monster or some kind of an abusive guy because that isn t the way it is. I just grew up VERY differently from him that has caused me to have so many set backs as an adult that makes me very childish in some instances with certain things that we fight about certain things that I deal with in my life he just wants to help me be a better version of myself realize that the world life doesn t work the way my head sometimes has me thinks it does, because of my disadvantages growing up my BPD, (Borderline Personality Disorder, ) I just want to be the best version of myself not lie to myself. I need to work on myself SEVERELY, I guess the question now is, can we work on ourselves together Or do we have to seperate to work on ourselves then come back to