I Cant Do This Anymore
I m sorry guys. .. I m in a really, REALLY tough spot right now. I am with someone I LOVE have been with for a year 5 months now, which is the longest I ve ever been with anyone, that means something to me. It means the entire WORLD MORE to me that he stuck by my side while I was in rehab for FOUR MONTHS. He didn t cheat on me, he didn t talk to any other girls in any inappropriate way; he stuck by my side 110 THEN some. I have BPD, (Borderline Personality Disorder, ) this makes me extremely emotional, EXTREMELY AFRAID of being abandon by ANYONE that I love, no matter who it might be. A friend, a family member, anyone. this causes me to emotionally detach myself from people not care about relationships or people as much because I am just convinced that it s going to end they re going to abandon me just like me dad did, just like everyone I ever loved did, so why even try (That is how my BPD makes me think, feel) But Him STAYING
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