Animenzs Unravel Tokyo Ghoul OP Piano( TV Size)

POV: You re an average pianist going through YouTube, and you discover Animenz s Unravel for the first time. You sit there watching in awe as you see two hands moving at speeds never seen before. I know that I m not the only one who immediately saw Unravel as a direct challenge. You immediately see comments like Hardest arrangement of all time or Harder than Chopin Etudes. Literally everything online tells you that you cannot play this arrangement(They re right btw), and you only get more motivated. After dumping a large portion of my existence into learning and practicing this piece, I only ended up learning the TV Size portion. I feel a little bit that I ve let myself down in one not learning to play it perfectly, and two for not learning the whole thing. I know I can play the wall(0:440:56) better than this, but every time I played it perfectly when recording, the nerves would get the best of me and I would mess up some easy part immediately after or completely