It makes me think too much. And I am trying to participate

It happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can t. It doesn t happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me. It almost happened this morning, but I thought of Sam s kiss, and it went away. I probably shouldn t be writing about this too much because it brings it up too much.