Signs of Betrayal Contemplate

Lyrics: Sadness builds while happiness just passes by Violently I still try to relieve myself from the depression why So much to live for Sooner or later these feelings they will subside inside Agonizing over who I am In solitude is where I feel I stand Take another drink to block the pain Swearing at myself for my mistakes Will I make it through more years and rise above my fears Or will I fall away I ve tasted the love and the hate For this I try to find the right or wrong reasons to die Things are difficult now so I contemplate And try to find the right or wrong reasons to die Several reasons I cannot let go For the people that still hold me close Life is never really all that bad Keep telling myself as I m looking back Contemplate my own fate Stuck in this hole And now the walls start to close I close my eyes And scream for my life Why