Whats going on for Hamster

Hi :) Im Jonah I look happy, Right Well, IM. NOT. What all you see, is The fake me. But Im the real Jonah Mowry. Ive done thingsThings Im NOT proud of. Ive cut. . a lot. I have SCARS. Suicide was an option. many times The first time I cut myself was in the SECOND GRADE I get bullied everyday This started in 1st Grade. . And Im starting Eight Grade next month. Im not ready. I have one close friend left. The Rest are Starting Highschool. Im Scared. To Go Back. A lot of people hate me. I Dont know why But i gues i do. Cuz I kinda hate me too. . Gay. Fag. Dick. Douch. Homo. Ass hole The list goes on and on. I cant do this anymore Im Tired of Bing Torn Down. And building myself up to only be Torn Down AGAIN. But. . Im not Going anywere Because Im STRONGER than that And I have a million reasons to be Here.