wanted so badly just to love you

wanted so badly just to love you but I lack the capacity to be close to you my pain leaves no room for anyone else but I can change I swear I can change I just dont know how now Im left with all my demons they hang around just talking shit one of them blows cigarette smoke and half smiles at me and says you thought we were gone for good but I can change I swear I can change I just dont know how